I've been in a bit of a slump for a few days.
At first, I thought it must be caused by being so tired.
A good friend (you know who you are!) suggested it might be from the new drugs. The new drugs seem to make me very tired, so this reasoning works on both accounts!
Tonight, I realized their might be a more cosmic reason.
Tonight we went to the annual shiur (lecture), marking the yarzheit of our dear from Danny Frei, HY"D, who was murdered 14 years ago, on the 10th of Elul, by an Arab terrorist. (You can read a brief bio of Danny here. For some moving insights, written by our dear friend Mara, Danny's widow, who has been blessed to remarry and rebuild her life, see here)
As I listened to the lecture about the upcoming holidays and, particularly, about the High Holy Days, when God sits in judgement of us, it occured to me that there might be a deeper reason for my slump.
I suddenly remembered that last year, also during Elul, I also found myself in a slump.
I remember, because when I mentioned my unexplainable slump to a friend from Beit Natan (unfortunately, I do not remember who), she suggested that my slump might have to do with Elul, and all the introspection that Jews do at this time of year. She mentioned that many women have a difficult time during Elul.
At the time, I thought she was off target, but she suggested I see if the mood passed after the chagim. To my surprise, it did.
I never found an explanation for what caused my slump or what made it go away.
I forgot all about that incident, until now, when I find myself once again in a slump that has no apparent reason.
Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.
With love and optimism,
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