I don't want people to think of me and feel sad.
I don't want people to see me and feel sorry.
I don't want to be the cause of worry and concern.
I know that when you first hear the news, it's a bit of a shock. So it's okay to be sad in the beginning (I was too). But don't stay there!
You can ask me anything.
I'm totally open.
I don't mind talking about the cancer or what's going on.
Chemo certainly affects the day-to-day of my life, so there's no ignoring it.
But I really don't intend to hang out in some dark, depressing emotional pit.
So here's what I want:
When you think of me, be happy.
When you see me, smile.
I've always been an activist, and I don't plan on stopping.
Come visit -- outside our door are pamphlets and CDs you can take home.... maybe you'll join some of my causes yet!
Tell me what's going on with you. I'm interested. I care.
I can still hear about your trials and tribulations. They are not mine, so they don't add to my burden.
I don't think that other problems are "trivial compared to cancer." I don't think that way. And if I can help, that's great!
Recently, I told a friend: I'm going to live until 90!
The friend asked me: why only 90?
She was right: I'm going to live until 120!
And I have a lot to do in the next 80 years:
I want to make the world a better place.
And I want to spend a lot of time feeling happy and laughing.
So, if you have a funny book -- I'd like to read it.
If you have a funny movie -- I'd like to watch it.
Moshe and I are planning to go see the Simpson's movie -- if you'd like to come with us, let us know.
I thought it would be fun to go with a whole crowd, like we used to do in the "old days" (when we were young, single and going to live forever). We can laugh and be a bit rowdy (no talking during the movie!) and go out for Pizza afterwards.
I'll post when we are going, then you can all come too!
Bring popcorn! :-)
Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.
With love and optimism,