I am in a lot of pain, and it is all my fault.
For the last few months, I have only had to take pain killers sporadically.
However, for the last few days, I have had to take pain killers every evening. As long as I take the pain killers before the pain gets too bad, I am fine. Usually, that is not a problem. I really should just take them systematically, every evening, around six.
Tonight we had a simcha, the joint Bar and Bat Mitzvah celebration of our friends' children (a 12 year old sister and a 13 year old brother).
I usually take pain killers before, or at the beginning of, a simcha. Between the standing around, the sitting around, and the dancing, I have learned that if I do not take pain killers, I will suffer from pain.
Well, tonight I forgot to take pain killers as a precaution and, even though I felt the back pain begin, I also kept getting distracted and forgetting to take the pain killers during the event, even as the pain got worse.
By the time we were on our way home, I was in agony.
The pain was completely unnecessary and avoidable.
And that is why I feel like an idiot.
Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.
With love and optimism,