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Tuesday, May 4, 2010

So Tired

Lately, I have been sacrificing my sleep, in order to spend time with my kids.

Often, the time is spent on fun things, like playing games or watching movies.

Other times, I spend the time talking with my kids, about whatever they want.

Recently, I have been spending a lot of time trying to help my kids with some specific issues.  These conversations drain my strenth, physically and emotionally.

I know that my time is well spent.

I know that my priorities are in order, and this is what I need to be doing right now.

I just wish I had more energy.

Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.

With love and optimism,


Sarah said...

I can really relate. It is so hard to be so tired so often and want to give so much. I just understand, if that helps. No useful suggestions. You know what you need and when. Life is all about balance, isn't it.

Anonymous said...

You are a great mommy. Judging by the things you post on your blog, you have a great ability to perceive and understand things and see things in the right perspective. I know it's draining, especially when dealing with tough discussions with our kids where it's sometimes very difficult to think of what to say to help them. But if anyone can do it you can. Wishing you strength and health to keep up what you're doing!

Laura said...

Hi Rivka I found your blog on the side bar of Round the Island. I will indeed daven for you to heal and experience renewed energy. I don't have cancer, but MS, so I can relate to the intense fatigue. Thank God you are able to be present to your kids as much as you are, despite the exhaustion...it is a hard choice when your body is so bone deep tired. Kids really can't understand.

refuah sh'lema

mikimi said...

Your kids know you are doing your best and love you no matter what. it is hard to see,feel be in "less" place than in the past.
prayers for you always on my mind

Anonymous said...

I don't have cancer or MS - thank God - just 5 kids, a hubby and a full time job. I am so tired all the time. I never get to do anything fun - I never get enough sleep, I do not watch TV and never go out on dates. I work hard during the day and take care of my family -put the kids to bed and work some more. thats it. And I am still sooooo tired.
I hope you feel better - you do more on chemo than I do!
Your friend Ariela

Batya said...

You're investing in the most important "product" your kids.

Bernie said...

What a wonderful mother you are, you are always there for your children, they know you are sick and they also know you are doing the very best you can.
I am keeping you and your family in my heart and prayers....:-)Hugs

RivkA with a capital A said...

Sarah -- I know you get it. Thanks for the empathy. I've tried to call you a few

times recently and just don't catch you....

SS -- you can't judge a blogger by her blog -- after all, I get to choose what

goes in and what stays out. I wish I had your confidence!

Laura -- thanks for stopping by, please visit again! The head of Beit Natan (Women's Cancer Support and Resource Center) has never had cancer (she founded the center in memory of a friend), but she does have MS. I have learned a lot from her about living gracefully with a disability.

Mikimi -- I hope you are right.

Ariela -- Don't sell yourself short. I am so amazed by all you accomplish! I certainly don't "do more" than you, but I do different things. Only recently, did I start really making time for fun.

I would encourage you to make it a priority to do fun things. You do not need to do something big, or something that takes a lot of time, but it is important to set aside time for fun. Read a book or watch a video (no time? try watching half a movie, or rent a series, and watch one episode). Play a game with one of your kids -- backgammon is fast, chess takes longer (and is more challenging, which I find more fun). SET is great, and quick. Card games are good too. My suggestions clearly reflect what I think is fun. Only you know what you need to make you smile!

Gila said...

Hi motek! Okay, I don't have: cancer (well I did, but it was a nice wimpy kind and it is now gone), chemo, husband or kids BUT I do have a big lump of pizza dough in my freezer, along with frozen pizza sauce and some cheese. Will see about getting it to you this week.

RivkA with a capital A said...

Gila -- you make me laugh!!