My stomach is so unhappy.... it makes me unhappy.
I was in such a good mood today.
I am excited about Pesach and all the wonderful plans we have!
I had my bone drug today, so I spent the morning at the hospital. I had a date with a good friend who I have not seen in a long time. It was great to spend the time with her.
Overall, it was a good morning. My enthusiasm for our Pesach plans spilled over into every conversation I had, with friends, with acquaintances, with hospital stafff, etc. I felt good.
Mid-morning, my stomach started hurting (again). At first it did not bother me much. As the day progressed, it only gotten worse.
I had to take a nap in the afternoon, rather than spending time with my kids.
When I woke, I did not feel better. I am popping Lopi-Care (Imodium), but it has not helped yet.
To make matters worse, I am out of my acid-reflux medication (Omprepradex), so that is bothering me too.
In short, I feel physically miserable, and that makes me feel emotionally miserable.
Moshe's not home yet and the kids are fighting (over the computer -- what else?) and I cannot deal with it well, because I have no emotional resources left.
Oh, and my back hurts, and I have athlete's foot (again! I NEVER had it before I got cancer and now I get it all the time!!), and dry hands, and my markers are still creaping up.
Have I mentioned lately how much I HATE HAVING CANCER?!!!!!!!!
Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.
With love and optimism,
Bennet: enough of blaming ourselves (video)
2 hours ago