I put on two pain patches yesterday morning, but I am still in a lot of pain. I woke up multiple times in the middle of the night from pain, and this morning I woke up in agony. The pain just got worse as the day progressed.
In addition to the patches, I took a Percocet. I took a whole pill and even that did not alleviate the pain, though it made the pain bearable.
I do not know how I managed to teach swimming today, but I did.
My final class is for advanced swimmers and I teach that class from outside of the water.
Today, I pulled a chair up to the edge of the pool and gave my comments to the kids while sitting down.
One of the parents commented to me that this must be the "best job."
I was not sure what she meant, so she explained "sitting out in the sun, teaching swimming."
Anyone who has seen me teach knows that I am usually running up and down alongside the lane, giving the kids instruction. I might sit for a few minutes, but I am 100% with the kids.
Today, I sat because I could not stand. I could barely manage to sit.
I did not want to elaborate about how much I was in pain, or explain that that was why I was "lounging" by the side of the pool.
I laughed off the comment, but it stuck with me. I know she did not mean anything negative, but it struck a nerve.
I was not in full form today. I had a very tough time concentrating on the kids. I was so unbearably in pain.
When class finally ended, I dragged myself to the changing rooms.
When I left, I had to ask someone to help me carry my pool bag up the stairs to the exit. I could barely walk. I did not even want to drive, but I had no choice.
I just wanted to get home so I could take more Percocet.
My oncologist advised me to add another patch and take as much Percocet as I needed. I no longer cared whether or not the drugs made me woozy (they did not), I just wanted to get out of pain.
My oncologist wants me to come in tomorrow morning to do some scans. He does not usually see patients on Tuesdays.
I am worried. All this pain cannot be good.
Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.
With love and optimism,
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