Yuck!

***** warning: this post is about feeling sick to your stomach *****
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I used to avoid throwing up at all costs.

Moshe would see me lying in bed, suffering, and encourage me to "get up and throw up," because I would almost certainly "feel better afterwards."

I would continue to lie in bed, focussing on breathing slowly, maybe even sipping some water, praying to fall asleep and wake up after the nausea has passed.  This method usually worked for me.

I did not get nauseas that often... before chemotherapy.

Now, I walk around with Pramin (anti-nausea medication).  I do not need it often, but feeling nauseas is no longer such a rare experience.

Last night, I knew that Moshe's approach would help me.

After tossing and turning for about half an hour, I finally got out of bed, dragged myself to the bathroom, and allowed myself to throw up.

It freaked me out a little.

It felt a little bulemic -- eat too much, then throw it up.

I didn't have to do anything gross.  I just opened my mouth and did not fight to hold anything in.  It is quite amazing, how things just flow in the wrong direction.

Chemotherapy really messes with my insides.

Despite the icky feeling of throwing up, I did feel better afterwards.

I went back to bed and fell asleep almost as soon as I my head met my pillow.



Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.

With love and optimism,
RivkA