It took a while, but I am finally listening.
My oncologist kept telling me to take drugs. But I did not take them.
It's not that I liked the pain. It's just that I did not want to take pain killers.
I was intimidated by Optalgin. (If it is banned in the US, I did not want to be taking it in Israel)
But the pain was making it difficult to fall asleep.
So I started taking Optalgin at night.
My doctor insisted that I also take at least one a day, to get rid of the pain.
So I took one, and the pain went away.
So I took another one.
Soon, I was taking one or two at a time, up to four times a day.
Once I entered the mindset that I should not be in pain, I no longer wanted to be in any pain.
I needed more Optalgin.
If I take two pills, four times a day, that is: 8 (pills a day) x 7 (days a week) x 4.5 (weeks in a month) -- i.e. 252 pills a month.
I went to the pharmacy with my prescription.
The pharmacist could not believe I wanted 12 boxes (21 pills/box) of Optalgin.
"Do you suffer from migraines?" The pharmacist politely inquired.
I smiled and replied "No, cancer."
Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.
With love and optimism,
13 hours ago