Have you ever noticed that it is easier to be upbeat when you are feeling good?
Well, it took me a while to notice. (I never claimed to be quick!)
Actually, I noticed that my downward mood swings often coincided with my being sick.
As I got better, my mood would, inevitably, pick up.
Part of this cycle has to do with keeping busy. When I have energy, I am busy doing things. I do not have time to get bogged down by melancholy thoughts.
But when I am sick, and lying in bed... boy do those thoughts creep in!!
Once they start invading, they are like an avalanche. One thought leads to another until suddenly I am burried under all this... stuff.
Then I have to dig my way out, and there is not a lot of air.
Until the day comes, when the sun is shining and I am feeling good again.
All those heavy thoughts melt away, and I can get back to being myself again.
It can be difficult, especially when my mood is grey.
But I try to remember that the clouds will eventually part, and I might even see a rainbow along the way.
Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.
With love and optimism,
the cancer of protecting your own neighborhood
9 hours ago