You guys are the best!!
I knew I could allow myself a pity-post and you wouldn't go getting the wrong idea.
I felt significantly better today.
At least, my tummy did.
I still felt that heavy, weighted, tired feeling that I felt last night. It did not bring my mood down, but it did make me want to go back to sleep.
Even though I woke up late, I still felt like like I was in a fog. After a few hours, I stopped fighting the feeling and lay back down on the couch. (The laundry was finished, but I still had not made my bed. God bless my husband, who finally asked my kids to do it for me tonight.)
Anyway, As soon as I lay down, I fell into another deep sleep... for FOUR hours!!
I had to force myself to get up and go to the pool.
Once there, my energy returned to me.
I am constantly amazed by how much effort it takes me to drag myself to the pool each week and how great I feel after I teach.
Today, I even swam a few laps.
I am really out of shape, and I am stiff in places I did not realize (probably from the cancer). I want to try and swim a little bit each week. I hope that I will succeed in motivating myself.
I also hung out a bit, treading water and chatting with some some women I know.
At the end of the day, I still felt very tired and weighted down, but I also felt good!
I was going to write a heavier post, about something I found out yesterday, but I think I'll post it tomorrow.
There is too much good energy in my home right now. I want to enjoy it.
My two youngest kids just returned from their tiyul sh'nati (annual school trip). They are showered, fed, and bursting with stories about all their adventures.
Life is good!!
Please daven (or send happy, healing thoughts) for RivkA bat Teirtzel.
With love and optimism,
The Face of a Hypocrite
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